Its been a month plus ever since i'm together with him,
all though, he had use harsh & cruel words towards me before,
but, my heart still indeed loves him.
Had really gone through many things, i had really spent my
E-v-e-r-y-d-a-y with him.
We can really quarrel over small matters, like me not putting up his photos in friendster, me saying just abit of anger words, compared to his, & sometimes, we just misunderstood each other & misinterprete the words we've said.
but one night, when I've really packed my stuffs already,
I realised then, how important I was to him, when he teared.
The harsh words he said when his angry, makes me feel very hurt deep in my heart. But one thing it is, I was never angry & did not even scold him nor shout at him back.
All these doings for him, he sometimes could even doubt my love for him,
which makes me disappointed.
Whenever he ask me to leave, i'd think to myself,
Would he even hold me back?
Maybe, hearing from Xiaoting, its true that its normal for couples to quarrel almost everyday when they live with each other.
There were many advices, But I chose not to listen, & carry on with my life like that. Obviously, they couldn't changed my mind.
But sometimes, his just so afraid that I would heed their advices one day.
I gave him my words, that I won't. If I were to heed, I would definitely heed it by then, yea. hmmm..
He would just bear the grudge in whatever things I say, sometimes he do talk without thinking, but me? I didn't choose to say it out, to avoid quarrelling.
I really hope him & bro would have the determination to quit project i, at the least, i did not do it before. Thats why I think i definitely have the rights to want him to stop.
Because whenever I see him doing it, my heartaches.
Its not just about the money, its just that it really hurts his own body, but partly, it's about the money too, as spending hundreds alone on it, don't you think its just a waste? Of cause i'm not wanting you to spend money on me, but in fact save the money up!
It would be a good use for you in the near future when you are tight on cash. yea.
For you, I've already not been drinking & clubbing, which i often used to drink.And N-o-t contacting any guys and so forth.
Kaes, now deciding what i'm gonna do..?
Should i even continue schooling when june holis are over?
Or should I find a job instead.. I'd really would like to work now.
Intro for jobs anyone ?. hmmm
Will blog by again, seeing if his comp works.
