I miss you all.. sigh*

Heya, I'm back to blog =)

Friday, had an enjoyable outing with Yingying & rebecca. Sadly, Yinghui did not joined us.
Metup with Xiaohei at Tampines, as Rebecca asked him to come along, So trained down, & met Rebecca at Bugis Taxi stand. We then headed to Street to shop, waha. She bought many things, while I only bought a top. & saw Pearlyn at Street too (:
Not long after, yingying met us Topshop outside. Then we went BigBird to slack.
The whole day was just at Bugis (= I was super hyper that day, enjoyed the outing~

Then at night, met Ahboonie sister at Hougang.


At last, everything is settled.
I feel at eased now.
I might be heartless , but its true. Yinghui did told me a phrase before,
旧的不去,新的不来
I know you still love me alot, but whatever it is.
Let bygones be bygones.. I'm so not good~ the past i might be good. But not now.
Like what you say, I'm becoming scary, I also think i've changed.
Changed drastically. I remember using this word, "changing drastically", I used to blog about you, changing.. But now its my turn.

A total changed. Find a new love and forget me.
But whatever it is, do Takecare (=

P.s/ Having diabetes sooon!*

Okay.. At last, I'm back for updates !
Was quite lazy to update..

Ever since our Broke up, He had been drinking every night, until drunk.
His friend calling me down to takecare of him and etc.
Of cause I wasn't heartless (=


Had a fun outing out together with Eewei & Michelle ~
All meetup at East Point. Then after our meals, we headed down to Bugis.
At last! Me & tuna found our skirts. haha, Walk around & we went starbucks to slack.
Then we all decided to have Sushi at tampines. Ate a little, and was supposed to have some night programmes with Michelle. But something happened, so all was cancelled.
But overall, I still enjoyed my day~

Next day ,
went down to Town~ With yinghui & rebecca.
walked over there , & slacked, then headed over to Deskar :)
Drank over there, and headed to find Cousin's bf at Three horse road, drank abit too.
And Boatquay, drank too.
Was then fucking drunk, the boss there thought I took Drugs -_-
like wth, take drugs in the public? hmm.. zzz
Of cause I did not. Was just really drunk.


My friends may not like you, they were partially the reason of the broke up that time too..
But, now come to think of it, if they were really my true friends, they will definitely respect my decision (=
You were still the bestt..


He flared up at me, i was damn scaredd....

IF ONLY ... IF ONLY......



Alright, I'm sure I have lots to blog & say right now ...
Oh my god, & my memory is getting bad nowadays. Damn itt..

Just a weekend, & many things happened.

Stayed home the whole day on Friday, Ahboon was tired. So did not meet him either.

Saturday, went supermarket with mum =) Bought Jason Chocolates! I was really looking forward to our meeting then. Oh well, after that collected my handphone ! At last ! my hp, N73 is repaired, after so long... like months. Then met Eewei after that. Went to make my Ezlink, Queued damn long. After that slacked for awhile, and I headed of to Bugis to meet Rebecca & yinghui. Rebecca & I met up first, waiting for Yinghui to come down. Saw Steven & Crystal with their baby, Damn Cutee. Around 4+pm, Yingying joined us for awhile, as we 5plus had to head to Deskar. So after that, we headed down.. Slowly slowly, and something bad happened. Didn't expected it to happen though, But still, I'm touched for everyone's doings.
Sisters crying, getting real angry & worried over such stuffs, not forgetting & Brothers getting damn frustrated over itt. Thanks to all sweet :)


I went to find Dear Jason, It will be my last time calling him "Dear"? yeah..
Everything had all been said out.. His dogs ran out, I brought his dogs back home.
But then i saw jason downstairs again, i went over & told him something,
and then, he held me back again........ But he was very late for his camp alreadyy, & so i told him to go back camp first. I love the nights having macdonalds with you =p




If you were to come accross what i'm saying here now, all I can say is Sorry. I've got plenty of words to tell you, but I just can't express out much, Don't know why. You, Kneeling down on your knees, Crying hardly.. Nobody will know how I feel, Its just like a sharp needle poking through my heart, Its so pain.. Then I realised how much you love me then. I know you that you indeed love your face alot, But still, doing all these, trying to hold me back.. You persuading me for 5hours +, & saying I was heartless & Selfish. But here I am to tell you boy, That I'm might be selfish & heartless, but you really deserve a much better Girlfriend than I am. We've been talking for so many hours, but yea, you said, after so much of talking to me, yet nothing goes inside my head. All I could think was of your future.. We were just talking about the same things & sentences over & over again, you said you don't deserve a much better girlfriend. But whatever it is, although I'm a really fickle minded girl, but this time, My mind is really set. Like what I said, you're the best boyfriend I've ever had. You're the first guy, which had done so many things for me, putting up with all my nonsensical stuffs, & of cause, you did some wrongs before too. Nevertheless i still forgave you . You making me so worried when you said you were in malaysia, police station, but in fact, you were in Thailand with Ah-Heng & Vonn. You neglecting me until I could not stand it anymore..
But all these , we've overcome it like what you said. This time, Guiltiness felt in me, yeah. I know you were also touched by me waiting for you 3 weeks when you were inside, But all I can say that, fret not, if you will to have a girlfriend in future, she definitely will wait for you too. You said you will not be able to find another good girlfriend like me, all I can say that is, I'm not as perfect as you think. Maybe I was before? But till you neglected me, there were some changes.. Your neglection was a big impact to me then, I loved you & did many things for you during that period, in fact, no appreciation. But I can see the real big change in you towards me now. I'm really touched! Now, this kind of things have to happen.. All I can say is I really love you & i do. All I can say that, There are still many trees out there for you, Good Girls are not extinct yet. Just that you must take time to find a good tree again .. =)


*HATRED*
You said you will definitely hate me if I were to leave you, well . I can understand your hatred then, really. I have felt like you before, being hurt by someone, and hating the person you love in the end.. Its natural, so I understand you that you will hate me. But, all I can say that is, Even if you were to hate me, I will still love you deep down by my heart, Remembering our memories. Though you did not want to leave any memories behind. No matter how much you hate me, I will still love you deep down inside my heart forever. I really hugged you for the last time & kiss you goodbye, before you going up to your house. I swear I gave you a tight hug, as I know it might be the last time giving you a kiss & a hug.. & all I can say that, the pain in you would be just temporary only alright :]] Everything will be fine, Don't say you can't be strong, Don't say you can't continue on with your life. You sure can, once you think it straight & get on with your life. You were still living before getting to know me, So it made no difference & may Just continue on & find a much better girlfriend whom deserve your love. Trust me.. You're not bad looking, you are 忠心 to your girlfriends. You are definitely the best guy i've ever met boy..
All I ask is for you to get on with your life, after sometime you will be fine, Trust me.
Don't say no , Cause i know you will be able to get it over .
& remember what I've said, be strong. I know you can :]
Hopefully you'll know how I'm really feeling now, after saying these much.
I might be repeating the same old thing over & over again,

THE main point is that all I asked is for you to carry on with your life,
And you desereve a better one.. (: Have the courage boy.

Lastly, just to say this one last time, that i love you jason ong. This is definitely the most important part.. & Thanks for all.
I really can't bear to let it go, But this time, it might be a lil different boy...
All I can think is about YOU , you should know why I'm saying these.. =/
It is painful for me too.. & so is it for you.


A note to you, Go out with your friends, & it may cheer you up.
As you won't be able to think so much about these :) alright.


1year plus memories are indeed hard to forget though.. Just remember that we had this love..
加油！❤

I SO MISS YOU DEAR..

Its been like 2 days, ever since Dear had called me.
Haha, just like times when he was inside Remand, did not get to talk nor see him much.
Lucky now I'm abit used to it already ~ But I'm wondering what had happened to him, why suddenly cannot call me for 2 days straight .. Hopefully he's able to call me tmr ='(

We're abit suay, Guess 1 is our Bad luck number
1Month we could not celebrate & couldn't wish me, 1year we could not Celebrate & couldn't wish me, & NOW, 1 year 1 month could not celebrate, & couldn't wish me too !!!
ARGH

But still..
Hopefully like what you say, everything will go smoothly..
&.. I love you !*


P.s/ I need some rest...

Currently: Stress still..

Its Me & Ongong's 1year 1 month :]

I really love you alot dear.

I took a picture of him yesterday, will update soon .

It may be real over for us soon ..
You never know whats gonna happen in the near future.

But I swear you're the best guy I've ever met !
But maybe somehow you deserve a much better girl than I am? Thats what you said right? >.<
Maybe my attitude also really sucks =/

Haha.. Nevermind just to say that, I really love you

Omg, & i'm so falling sick ..
Flu, Cough & Sore throat.

Nevermind.
What ever it is,
加油！

02.03.07....❤